The Failsafe

Finally lost 20lbs :)

2012-02-25T19:23:00.004-08:00

Hey my blog readers, I'm back for now, just to tell you that I finally lost a lot of weight which made me very happy right now. I've been doin' a lot of workouts that helped me lose up to 20lbs of fats very fast, if you are still looking for ways to lose weight, you can go get the ebook here, http://fatburnerfactory.blogspot.com you can see my before and after picture also, so yeah, that's all for now, bye :)

When you left us here with tears and memories....

2009-08-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

....it feels like the end of the world.....

My Disgusting Return...

2009-06-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

Hey...it's been a long time..finally, i've been accepted by the Business School which is situated in Gadong...the first day is going to be this 6th of July i think...i'm gonna miss that music school where i worked at this several months...i gained a lot of knowledge, experience, and don't forget, memories...this June's my last month..gonna miss all the staffs, teachers, the students and the parents...(sob sob)...hahaha..about 2 to 3 weeks from now, i'll resign, wow! time flies so fast! Today's my offday..all i think about is relax...remembering the memories of my past times in that school..damn! i will come there to pay visit sometimes...(sigh) "How Much I Wish The Time Stops When The Best Thing Happens..."

Untitled...

2009-05-09T06:59:00.000-07:00

*sigh*.....Ya'll know what? I'm fuckin' tired...of what i've been through...it's just like i only felt the happiness for awhile only..and the other, Hell! fuck these words that tried to bring me down! fuck these obstacles! felt like those shits are hanging on at my happiness...i'm trying to break down the walls..searching for a serenity, solace and satisfaction...and i wish my ears are deaf everytime when some "loudmouths" complains..i'm fuckin' tired of these hell...how i wish the time can be skip to the next level of this shitty month...everytime i die by these words! i am the fallen! fuck all the words of complain and those thoughts of negativity...now all i need to do is patience,and i have to push all the memories inside and wait for it to die! so long and good nite!

You had me at Hello...

2009-03-04T06:58:00.000-08:00

Hi i'm back and i'm sober..hahaha don't want to confess anything or whining or bla bla bla...i just want to say i miss my friends man....everything has changed with a blink of and eye..it's just like a dream how time flies...now it's March...and my latest "goal" haven't achieved yet...still in process..hahaha...i think that's all for now folks...bye!

When All Hopes Were Lost...(This is not a lyric..haha)

2009-02-02T07:49:00.000-08:00

My mind is blinded, i'm in a dark room which i even barely can't see my hand...all hopes were lost, i'm the only hero left who should save myself from this nightmare..why the fuck am i doing this? letting those instincts controlled everything...until another explosion took place at the locations which i should protect, the same mistake happened again and living with the conclusion is a must..bombs full of hatred killed me so many times but i have to fight back although it's painful..where are all the old places which were used to be there? where are all the beautiful heavenly garden that used to cover the uglinest of the paradise? and why the fuck am i crying because of this lost? is there any second chance to fix this torned heart? days and weeks i've been waiting for my wishes to come true but it turns out to be another failure, i hate saying "i will fight this all"...i don't have a secret weapon to kill this painful obstacles..it sucks which they're still continuing the devastation during my helpless days, in my mind all i think about is how to get through with this? should i accept the invitation to a place where i don't know is it heaven or hell or should i just move on with this disasterous pain, thinking that one day i will have the courage to fight with one hand? god please give me the power that i had once before so i can get through with this...send me an army to start another war...and this time i'll blow their fucking heads off once and for all, i will leave my confidence behind..i mean i WILL! and...i hope there's no more dusts in my mouth...now, ATTACK!

The Acacia Strain...

2009-02-02T07:03:00.000-08:00

Fuck yeah now i'm back listening to Death Metal, Metalcore, Deathcore, Bloody Satanic Death Metal, Melodic Death Metal and any other killer metal musics...cuz before this my mood was only for bands that "sing" not screaming..heheh...especially Lamb of God...oh my! that band? Awesome! Ever since i knew them in 2003 i thought only the song "Laid To Rest" were the best, then last week i downloaded mostly all of their songs, woohoo! my new drug, baby! their killer Drop D Tuned high gained distortion guitars plus the gun blasting drum beats and a "fuck you! i hope you die" vocal style from Randy,wooo! okay that's it! and plus, i got a new hairstyle, it's not an Emo..hahaha although it looks like it..this hairstyle made me look so pure evil..hahaha! nah kidding!

A Blackout at my working place in Gadong...

2009-01-26T06:55:00.000-08:00

Here are the pics that i took during the blackout...heheh

Scary~ haha this i took this outside my working place..

lame but cool isn't it? haha!

I took this inside one of the teacher's room...during that time i really need a fresh air and sunlight..i felt so suffocate that time..thats why i went to her room cuz ada windows..heheh

Your face! hahahah! i use lighter to make that thing..kira kes buang buring..haa..

Disaster in Gadong...

2009-01-21T17:41:00.001-08:00

hey! here i am and this is the first time i blog using my handphone, feel so boring rite now, got nothin' to do, there's a blackout here at my working place, not just here, i think at the centrepoint hotel also..after the disasterous flood that happened last Tuesday, blackouts occured at many places and buildings especially in gadong, i don't know about the other places, even the telephone line also didn't work yesterday, today, only the fax machine's not working, yeah it is a disaster, the traffic light's not working, no internet cnnection, argh! Anyway, yesterday i saw an angel,haha but too bad i think she's not single..ah fuck that i don't give a shit! Now, all i think about is
driving, hahaha! Kay i'm out!

my face is burning...

2009-01-18T19:07:00.000-08:00

hai i'm back! just came back from JPD..i'm going to have a driving license, baby..haha who cares? i'm blogging, why? cuz i'm pissed! sometimes it sickening me that "long hair" is against the rules...i kept thinking about it, is it harmful? looks unorganize? i don't think so, some long haired men look organized and "kemas" like me..hahah! but my hair's not too long..not yet..coming soon..haha! okay 'nuff said! shit! what's that below? that's what i'm craving for...a 7 string Schecter C-7 Black jack guitar...now i'm still waiting for Starmaker to call me about the price info..i'm also waiting for the Ibanez RG 7-string's price...ahh i'm so crazy about 7 string...can't wait to put baritone strings on top then install the Seymour Duncan 7 string invader pickups..yeeehh! nyaman! hahaha!

whoa?

2009-01-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

I hate to say i'm sorry for the lack of posts...because it's obvious that i'm very busy...and lazy..hehehe..even if online also i'm tired of doing it...there's something in my finger that forced me not to press the "OK" button to access the eBuddy...lame isn't it? i don't give a fuck! i got this feeling, maybe there's a time when i'm going to push all of this online,friendster,facebook,blogging aside...i mean if i'm "fully" tired already...but if i found something or someone interesting(haha), i will do that shitty stuffs again...man! shit happens a lot in this January...even the 2009 begun with a bad start..although there's a few bright side but the bad side fucked me off fifteen slice..hahaha.....pain, it's everywhere, i fought this, then i get that, it's unstoppable..all of my hopes were lost...that's why i feel so empty nowadays...sometimes i'm tired of doing anything, even making a single move also tires me, feel so suffocate, but at last...i..i give up..surrender..i'll let this pain controls me everyday cuz it will heal by itself in 10 years time...i am what i am...a quitter...i gave everything but i gained nothing....oh shit! why am i posting this? actually i don't need any sympathy...i post this because i'm pissed off...so i let it out...not all..just a bit..i just want to punch a face..it'll make me satisfy..say what u want, immature, bla bla bla i don't givafak! janji aku puas! hahahahahaha! i never felt satisfied since the first of January, so why not? for my own sake! okay i had enough..tired! out!

Current Status : Sick..haha!

2009-01-04T08:32:00.000-08:00

Usul mua urg sakit..ahahahaha!

Avenged Sevenfold - Until The End.....one word,"Awesome" read it!

2009-01-04T08:03:00.000-08:00

Weekends on young and angry streets
We meet, drink 'till trouble found us there
living life as without a care
We've had our fights, been black and blue
It's true, even gone to jail for you my friend
Bet your life that I'd do it again

Don't Change the way you think of me
we're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But for some of us, I'm worried

While some have gone their separate ways
there's some still caught up with the past instead
but move on, you're missing most of your life
They say it's hard to stay the same
when some fail, and others seem to gain
but friend, i'll be with you here until the end

Don't Change the way you think of me
we're from the same story
Life moves on, can't stay the same
But for some of us, I'm worried
We're all falling forward
with no sign of slow
And some moving faster
But that's all that I wanted, I wanted

You know it's hard
It's passing by
Memories
Be out all night
To reminisce wont bring you back
Just look ahead and hold on tight
We're all falling forward
With no signs of slow
And some moving faster
That's all that I wanted, I wanted.

Don't change the way you think of me
Oh yeah

Until the end......

ooo yeah!

2009-01-04T07:18:00.000-08:00

Hey i'm back! now i'm going to post some shit like the olden days..because nowadays i feel so lazy to do it...now, i'm not going to mumble and talk about my admire thing or should i say "my- longtime-10-years-already-admire" anymore..if she wants to get married,engage,die together with him inside a grave then go ahead lah..i don't mind..ahhh 'nuff said...i'm happy with my right life now a bit..everything's changed and it gave me goosebumps..haha! ah cilaka! blank tia ku nah~ kay nanti lah ku update yang panjang2..ilang bah yang kan dPost ah..hahaha!

Happy New Year, dudes and dudettes! haha!

2008-12-31T19:25:00.000-08:00

We only had a Family Barbeque last night and it's awesome..this photo tells everything..hahaha

Hmm...guess which one is me? hahahahaha!

Question Mark....

2008-12-24T21:46:00.000-08:00

"I'll annihilate to those who stands in my way...good luck to myself..." - Adee

Tagged by the Wonderful Sweet Efah...eheh

2008-12-21T08:18:00.000-08:00

Okay...10 facts about me?

1) I'm not a big fan of advices and lectures...everytime when a person lectured me,i just kept my mouth shut and in my mind the words that only came out?,"yea right!"

2) i love to make jokes..and if nobody laughs at my creation of jokes, i would consider them as lame...ahahaha!

3) i don't ususally slept early like 11 or 10 because to me it feels like the time is too short and my eyes are still bright..haha and i only felt sleepy when it's 2 or 3 a.m...

4) if there's one day i didn't practice my guitar playing i'll take midnight as my practice time although it's just for one hour only...

5) I'm very shy and quiet in the outside although during online i'm not..haha

6) when im mad at someone i don't usually scold them..i just have to shut up cuz if i said something,they'll hate me for the rest of my life...

7) i'm also not a big fan of a whiner...

8) i usually don't even care if anybody said anything bad about the kind of music i love, ya'll know what i mean, Rock and Metal music...who cares anyway? i love that genre...

9) to me, malay version of inspirational quotes are lame...ahaha

10) the most thing i hate is when my peaceful life is disturbed by an unknown stranger...

Alter Bridge - In Loving Memory...

2008-12-15T00:12:00.000-08:00

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone and
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know
You're a part of me
And its your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of the one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I never knew what it was to be alone....no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting

But now I come home
And its not the same no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me

I'm glad He set you free from sorrow
But I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you'll be here
With me still

All you did you did with feeling
And you always found a meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

And I know
You're a part of me
And it's your song
That sets me free
I sing it while
I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight
'Cause it comforts me......

A weekend in Rizqun...

2008-12-07T09:47:00.000-08:00

Sorry batah inda update,i'm very busy this lately and i don't know what to type here..i just have to "show off" ja lah..hahahaha
pathway to 1/4 of Heaven..eheheh

wah! nyaman eh! makan free! ahahaha...and F.Y.I,me and my bro finished all those dishes after that without any dirts and dust...hahaha!

showing off my new Motorola in the mirror..hoho!

Goodbye November...

2008-11-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

That's it! The 2008's November is over! Don't ever look back! Let's go to December! I don't know what to type here...damn! everybody seems so far away from me nowadays, or maybe i'm the one who is so far away...i miss all of my friends,my ex-classmates especially 5C(2007)..i wish there's a reunion someday..as December comes, that means there's 30 days left for the new year,yipes! so fast! are we still sleeping? what year is suppose to be today if these are all just a dream? wow! The world's getting older, the times getting faster and people's getting FAKER! Done!

Tagged?

2008-11-28T07:28:00.000-08:00

ARE YOU:

Perfect : inda lah
Tall : Sadang2 tinggi
Romantic : yeap..haha!
Left Handed : Nahee..

LAST:

Last friend you saw : Ijan
Talked to on the phone : Customer...ahaha
Person to text you : Effah
Is today better than yesterday : yesterday is better

FAVOURITE:

Number : 1910
Colour : Maroon
Chocolates : Snickers and Mars
Place : Antartica...ahaha

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS :

Q : What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A : Check my handphone
Q : Do you have anything bothering you?
A : yea..
Q : What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
A : Hmmm
Q : Where is the last place you went?
A : Mall..
Q : Do you smile a lot?
A : yeap
Q : Do you wish upon stars?
A : nahh..
Q : Are you a friendly person?
A : actually, i am...
Q : Where did you sleep last night?
A : in her room..hahaha
Q : Why did you sleep there?
A : Because she said yes...hahahaha!
Q : When was the last time you cried?
A : I don't remember when...
Q : What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A : Nope...i just jump to bed then sleep..ahah
Q : Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great.
A : 6
Q : What do you hear right now?
A : Enter The Grave by Evile \m/
Q : Does anything hurt you right now?
A : No..i'm invincible...ahaha
Q : What's your favorite month?
A : Ramadhan...eheh

EMOTIONS :

Are you missing someone right now?
-i miss no one..
Are you single?
-sort of..
Are you tired?
-yaaa..
Are your parents still married?
-yeap2

BASICS :

Real name : Muhammad Suryadi bin Haji Emran
Age : 18
Eye colour : Black and a bit dark blue..ahaha pasan
Zodiac Sign : Libra
Sex : Male
Single : yeap...
Crushing : i think so..ahah
Smart : not much..
Hair Colour : Black
Sweats or Jeans : Jeans Snitsky..haha
Phone or Camera : Phone
Health Freak : aha yeap..
Righty or Lefty : Righty..

FIRSTS :
First best friend : Malkan..
First boyfriend : ahaha i'm not gay u shit face!
First award : only a certificate..
First enemy : The Stupid-Possessed-Already-By-The-Devil Guy named Sudin..
First pet : A cat..
First vacation : Labuan..ahah

CURRENTLY:
Eating : nada...
Drinking : Soya Bean..
Listening to : Snuff from Slipknot..
Plans for tomorrow : Nada plan...
Waiting for : Money..$_$

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER :
Lips or eyes : Eyes...
Romantic or spontaneous : hmm both?
Sensitive or loud : Sensitive,but not hypocritically..ahah
Hook-up or in a relationship : Hook-up...

HAVE YOU EVER :
Drank bubbles : I don't think so...
Lost glasses/contacts : Many times..but i found it after that..
Ran away from home : Naahh...
Broken someone's heart : Ah i think once...
Been arrested : nope...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Do you like someone : Sort of...
Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : cmatulah...

My Off Day..

2008-11-16T22:38:00.000-08:00

Hey..i'm Adi! who are you? hahah sorry i'm a bit happy cuz off day..feel very tired and i'm enjoying this day like there's no more off day for next week...hahah! I wish that the time move slowly every off day but now it's already near 3 P.M...esh! krg msa kraja bth tu ia..damn! and just like i said i don't follow any suggestions or advices from everybody anymore when it comes to about MY FUTURE! people can bla bla ask me to go there ,asking me why am i going to do this and that,why don't just stay bla bla...and me,i just have to keep my mouth shut, let all the wasteful words go out from my left ear..in this life, we have to follow what we said,not what people said,trust our instincts,believe in what we're doing...then that's all! You Saved Your Life! and my Off Day's activity, only onlining and webcamming with Math, that's all but after this, Relax! aaaaahhhhh! hahaha i need some rest...

Haha! Sexy Bunny? Lol!

Don't Worry, Time Flies....

2008-11-09T17:33:00.000-08:00

Try this, take a Digital clock or watch then look at it..for example it's 5:00 P.M..after that turn around for a second, when u look back at the watch you'll see it's 5:02 P.M. We can feel that the time "upgraded their aeroplane's engine"..a day finished like an hour,an hour finished like a minute and a YEAR finished like a month...and ya'll know what...i can't wait for the end of December! cuz i got many things to do after that..sometimes i like it when the time flies so fast..so the hell we suffered temporarily can end quickly "pop"! just like that! in my mind all i think about is which school/college should i take next year...MTSSR? Sixth Form? Vox? and all i have to do is try it all...haha! i can say that this year is the year of relaxing for awhile after 12 years of studying..yeah it's just like taking time off...but next year, i need to start all over again...there's a reason why i didn't score too much on the "O" level and my education's a bit unsatisfying which i can't tell..but now i don't care about it temporarily and just put it aside for awhile...don't worry, goals can be achieved and Dreams can come true if u work for it! i got the feelings of making new friends, my brain is ready for somethin' new and so on...the only thing that i have to do now is to Hope and Pray that next year i'll found the door to the Bright Future......

Updates for November...

2008-11-02T10:15:00.000-08:00

Hey my blog readers! sorry for the lack of updates cuz i'm very busy with my new part time job...that means i'm going to update my blog rarely..or let it inactive for awhile...i'll be back updating soon...kay peace!

Watch This! Haha Extreme, baby!

2008-10-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

This is what i do when i'm mad and feeling crazy..haha! I hit my head with a Pepsi can...Damn! I love Extreme!

Slipknot - Snuff.....this tells something..

2008-10-19T23:52:00.000-07:00

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can’t destroy what isn’t there.
Deliver me into my Fate, If I’m alone I cannot hate
I don’t deserve to have you
My smile was taken long ago,If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn’t face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn’t hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren’t my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a Saint
My own was banished long ago,It took the Death of Hope to let you go

So Break Yourself Against My Stones
And Spit Your Pity In My Soul
You Never Needed Any Help
You Sold Me Out To Save Yourself
And I Won’t Listen To Your Shame
You Ran Away,You’re All The Same
Angels Lie To Keep Control
My Love Was Punished Long Ago
If You Still Care, Don’t Ever Let Me Know
If you still care, don’t ever let me know...

Yeah I'm 18! \m/

2008-10-18T10:02:00.000-07:00

It's 1 a.m. as i did the countdown for my birthday...i'm proud that i born on this date cuz Chevelle's vocalist/guitarist Pete Loeffler also got the same birthdate as me..which means "the date of a TRUE Rockstar was born" jangan sasak..hahaha...and i would like to thank ya'll who greet me...and the first one who greet me already Won $5,000 cash from me..hae haa! hae haa! jokin'...i'm a bit Happy cuz i automatically owned "something"..hoho..but too bad it sucks that my plan always ruin by excuses and many other stuffs...why is that? today,i planned to have a date,go out or whatever it is with one of my friends..i mean the ladies(heheh) and the answer was not as i expected...i ask her then she said she's busy with something,then her she said she can't cuz the exam is not far way from today, then another one bla bla bla...i didn't know if their excuses were true or not...i just have to say "okay i understand"...to be honest i do mad but what should i do? and i already knew when it comes to me it's always a "No"..btw before that,the ladies that i asked are all Single..i never intend to steal someone's girlfriend...damn! my birthday plan always ruined! why is that? so, tommorrow i'll just have to sit around and bite my nails pretending that i'm happy...

"sick of being nice to someone,at the end you'll get nothing...i mean nothing"

Before that...this lyrics is from the song i posted here...it's Awesome! Five Finger Death Punch Rocks! NOT JB!

2008-10-15T04:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so fed up with everyone around me
(No one seems to care)
I'm just so far gone and nothing's gonna change
(I'll never be the same)

It's always do this, do that,
Everything they want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always
Pushing me away

It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter what I say

It's never enough
No it's never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be

It's all so messed up and no one ever listens
(Everyone's deranged)
I'm just so fucked up and I'm never gonna change
(Wanna lay it all to waste)

Their always say this, say that,
Nothing that you want to
I don't wanna live that way
Every chance they get they're always
Shoving me aside

I'm Done

In the end we're all just chalklines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I've been given
I am what I am

I'd rather hate you
For everything you are
Than ever love you
For something you are not

I'd rather you hate me
For everything I am
Than have you love me
For something that I can't

It's never enough
It's never enough
No matter what I say

It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter who I try to be

It's never enough
No it's never enough
No matter how I try to taste

It's never enough
Never never enough
I'll never be what you want me to be

LAST update.....for this week...

2008-10-15T03:07:00.000-07:00

Hey there! I know i updated my blog rarely know cuz i'm not in the mood for blogging,not in the mood for surfing and NOT in the mood for online...and the wireless also need time to rest..not just us..we don't usually open the internet wireless everyday that is to prevent from "overheating"..hahaha..some bloggers and computer geeks claimed that their wireless got problems in connecting..yea it's true and i don't want that...now,i want to do something else..something that worth thousands of dollars..hoho! and i can't believe that this Sunday i'll be 18 yeah! any presents? hahaha..btw to anybody who are sitting for the exam i just wanna say Good Fuck! Oops! i mean Good Luck! i know those "Good Luck" greets ain't helping but i just love saying it..ahahaha..kay i bet that's all! will be updating again soon....

I'm Back! hoho!

2008-10-06T11:22:00.000-07:00

Well..this year's Raya to me is just an Okay...except for the 4th day which is awesome...aha..i can say this is a Mini-Reunion for ex-5C(2007)..we're planned to visit our ex-classmates' houses...some of them were not at home..too bad Sham and Hilmi cannot come with us because they're too busy..so it's just me,Fath,Izaan,Naz,Muiz and Bukhari...I only have the photos taken in Bandar and Aen's house..the others? nada...

I think everybody knows which one is me..hahaha..it's the one with the Maroon shirt...

From Left(Fath,Bukhari,Izaan,Me and Naz)

At Aen's Crib..(btw that's candid..LMAO!)

Am I that Annoying? ahaha! Entreprem!

Before we're going back to the Motoboat,we took a picture with Aen the Tuan Rumah..ahaha..Btw Happy Advance Birthday Aen! I still can't believe that you're older a day than me..emm..too bad i don't have the photos taken in the boat on our way to Sg. Kabun..and i still remember that i said "wah! siuk eh!" padahal baru jua perahu atu kan jalan..sakai! hahahahaha!

After the MotoBoat riding...we posed for awhile..lol!

I think that's all for now..i don't have all the photos actually, some are with Muiz and Bukhari..so after visiting Aen's house we decided to go to Nadir's,Cigu Kameesah's and Zatul's...before we're going to Zatul's crib, we take a "Pit Stop" at Giant for Dinner(nada open house bah cana jua..hahah)..after that we resumed our destination...then at last, went home..i'm arrived at home very fuckin' late..but it was a very "happening" day for me although some of the experience were included with a bit horror which i can't tell what is it..hoho..kay that's all...will be updating again soon...

P.S. Sapa rasa2 nya kwn ku atu mun kan beraya meses lu ah..aha kay!

To All Muslims...

2008-10-01T00:07:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say

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To anybody that i hurt so much or not that much...please please please forgive me...ada yg mental arh ku smpi nda nagur arh MSN apa ah...please forgive me! i mean it.....

Last Update....for awhile...

2008-09-28T10:27:00.000-07:00

Everybody knows why is that? haha..Raya is like 2 days more..or 3...i'm going to be busy after this..maybe i'll be updating on maybe i don't know..antah lah..hahaha okay i don't wanna use dirty words today...so for this temporary farewell from blogging..To All Muslims In This World I Just Wanna Say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!! If some of my posts offended ya'll i'm sorry..from the bottom of my leg to the top of my head..aha...i mean it..and to anybody who i maybe hurt their feelings..i just wanna say sorry...i'm begging ya..hehe..okay that's all! adios amigos chiodos nachos for free limited time available only in Kamar Store!

As long as updated..haha

2008-09-27T12:47:00.000-07:00

i'm blank today..no confessions no nothing...tommorrow maybe,let's prepare for the Raya shall we? hoho...why did some of my bestfriends blocked me in the MSN? oh no! okay i'm blank......me and my brother were very pissed by something we found "online" just now...then we only said this two words, "Biadab" and "Fucker"...and we're planned to do something Evil...wahahahhahaha!

P.S. I do accept apologies for this Raya...so try to find the right time for saying "sorry"..cuz i'm going to accept it for limited time only.......

Words Are Like Empty Bullet Guns That Broke...

2008-09-24T12:54:00.000-07:00

i was thinking about to upload my latest pic just want to show ya'll that i had a moustache...but don't need lah..hahaha skadar..i mean seriously i just can't believe that i grow moustache...now i'm waiting for beard..hahaha majal..and i'm tired of uploading my pic or else some of my intakes and friends are going to make fun of me saying this and that...i mean the pictures that contains i'm posing..hahaha..i know we don't need to care what people said but these guys...i never beat them yet...just waiting for the right time and the right place! now, i sacrifice for myself full time...no more scarifice to get a girl or bla bla bla..what can it do good to me anyway? i only get pigeon's shit from the sky...yea...screaming the word in public,"Oh (sensored!), I want you to be with me forever!" behind her then she still walks away..no respond...it only alerted the pigeon's to throw their poo on me...so unlucky...like i care...i don't wanna said that i'm an unlucky person or what so ever...that is what psychotic people do...i mean Emo..it equals to that...cutting,hurting yourself..does that hurt the ones that you hate? ouch! hahah sapa ngarat tangannya ane..aku plng terasa..ahaha cali2...words also..people kept making fun of you...did you die after people said "you're fat"? only Allah can take our life away not people's mouth...well no matter how much harsh words people said about or to you just act like wall...i know it's hard but one day you'll get used to it...cuz i'm also practicing it...well some douchebags always criticizing my band and it pissed me off..they felt satisfied after saying those words..satified? haha enjoy it while it lasts...example Metal bands, mostly "standard" people were criticizing and mocking Metal musics as and "headache creator",well do you suffer a headache after listening to a whole album of Lamb Of God? let me know...i'll massage you 3 hours free of charge...you say this and that but look at their life..they received money and laughing everyday ho ho ho...funny isn't it? words can't kill..it's youself who kills!

Grow Up!

2008-09-23T14:01:00.000-07:00

i mean 24 more days i'm 18? ahaha yea! driving license maybe i'll take it next year insyaAllah...and btw to my "online friends", if you're typing "insyaAllah" try to make it full..not "insya God","insya"...why is that? lazy?..ahahha...sorry for being rude this lately...being kind doesn't worth anything...especially being kind to the ones i admired...ahaha..btw...being a grown up i realized i had a moustache..how about a beard? i wanna look like Brent Hinds so that my brother and many of you are going to be afraid of me...wahahaha..Brent HInds is the Vocalist and the Guitarist for the Band Mastodon...he got a face full of beard and i want to have a beard like him..hahahahaha..seriously...no lah..i'm joking....kay a bit facts...the band Chevelle's vocalist Pete Loeffler(u can hear his voice here singing in my blog) got the same Birthdate as me..that's why we're look the same.....ahahahhaa sorry for this lame joke...today my mood is a bit Evil..so let me sleep first..tommorrow i'll be kind...period

Math Tagged me..ayoyo! hahaha!

2008-09-21T12:23:00.000-07:00

Q: 5 facts about me? hmm...

1) Well when i'm having a coversation in the MSN some of you realized that i'm a talkative kind of guy and nda tau malu,hahaha but actually i'm very quiet and shy in real life if u meet me...hohohooho

2) When i cough or sneeze,it sounds like an old man..hahaha that's what Math said..lol!

3) I never forget things easily..even a not-so-big-deal thing..i still can remember that although it's already like thousands of years ago..hahaha

4) I'm very good in making excuses..hahaha..all of my excuses sounds very real and i said it with full of actions..ahahahaha that's why even a very clever teacher also believe in what i said...

5) I hate to tell this...i'm the type of guy who really fucking cares about my skin..i don't want to be black..if i find out that my skin is burning i'll take actions immediately..that's why i quit football..ahaha..like i said, "what comes first,will stay with me till the end..."

Q: do you like anyone right now and who?

hmm...antah buat masa ini nada...if ada pun malas ku kan mbgtau...Paparazzi ku bnyk...hahahahaha!

Now I tagged...

Anyone who read this..yg sdah nda plng lgi pyah..ahahahaha! kna lgi cJimm ne =P

2008-09-20T13:11:00.001-07:00

Guitarist's Survey

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Influences:
u mean major influences? It's Kirk Hammett and Dave Mustaine...

Style:
Rock and Metal

Acoustic or Electric:
Both

Are you in a band?
Yeap!

Do you play rhythm or lead?
Both..

Do you take lessons, or are you self-taught?
I'm a complete self-taught...i don't need anybody's advice in guitar..hahah

Have you ever taught anybody?
Yea...i'm an instructor too..hoho

How long do you practice per week?
Everyday 24/7 :)

What kind of music do you like to play most?
Metal! \m/

How many years have you been playing?
I think 4 years already...

How many of your friends play guitar?
More than 10..haha

Can you write music?
Yeap...

FAVORITES

Brand of acoustic:
Taylor and Gibson..

Brand of electric:
PAUL REED SMITH and ESP!

String:
D'Addario and Gibson..

Chord:
F...haha

Song(s) to play:
Currently, Blackened from Metallica and Prowler from Black Tide...

Pick:
Joe Satriani Signature Pick Medium size

Riff in a song:
Machine Head's Halo Chorus Guitar Parts..

Song to play?
I think i already answer this above...

Band of all time?
Of Course Metallica...

YOURS

Main guitar:
It's called 'Human'...but looks like an Ibanez/Jackson rip off..lol!

Backup guitar:
Not yet..haha

Amp:
Mesa Boogie...i wish..

CAN YOU...

Play bar chords:
umm..yea..

Tune without using an electric tuner or pitch pipe:
I tuned by ear...aha

Play "Stairway To Heaven":
Yeah..but i need time to memorize the guitar parts...

Change your own strings:
yes..i can =D

Play any other instruments:
of course, it's a Harmonica and a Bass guitar...

Sing and play at the same time:
ahaha...yea and it's a stress killer!

Finger pick?
yes...but i'm not good at it...:-/

Play "Purple Haze":
I don't listen to that song...

Read tabs:
Yea...i use tabs..and sometimes by ear..

Read music:
iatah yg kn ku blajar tu..

OPINIONS

Best guitar:
ESP

Best guitarist:
Eddie Van Halen! he's a Tapping Machine!

Most influencial guitarist:
Mark Tremonti? He's still young but very influencial to me..

DO/DID/CAN YOU...

Take lessons:
nope...hah

Teach someone else:
yes...

Play songs over and over again when you first learn them:
yup..i'll repeat the same song like millions of times until i can play it with my eyes close..hahaha

Improvise:
yea...they're many things to be improvise..especially in Economy Picking and String Skips :-/

Solo/improvise for hours when given a backround beat and/or bass line:
yeap...

Front a band:
no...but i want it to..aha

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Trivium - The Deceived...If you understand what do they mean..baguslah...if not, that means you suck! haha!

2008-09-19T23:22:00.000-07:00

Disintegration constituents to decompose of the parts
A malformation utopia systematic unity can't be achieved
Be numb to all the things
That force you to frame
We are the deceived
Lost in the foreseen
To wait for aformentioned dreams time will only tell
Tell that the promised have been failed
Behold your fellow man through centuries of control
Adhering to the decrees of a manufactured god

2.a.m. The Best Time for me to blog..lol!

2008-09-19T11:18:00.000-07:00

As so ya'll know..i changed my URL cuz my previous URL sounds awful..hahaha..i realized by this..."eh sur, kau punya blog reckless yadi atu kh?",then i said,"yup" but in my mind it says, "eh? mcm bida jua URL ku atu ah"...ahaha ah forget it..what's the big deal? i only changed my URL, not The Aliens changed their UFO's shape..ahaha! wtf! okay i'm blank now because i'm in a good mood..hahaha! so, i just wanna tell about what i'm duin yesterday, i spent all afternoon shouting and laughing,we're playing C.S...i can tell you that i've never impressed by the things that my brother done but yeah he's good in using Sniper..lol! we're kept changing our nicknames..i forget to change my nickname into Sayuradi..aahaha but now i don't think i'm that 'sayur' anymore...wahahahahah! mati eh mun cAfnan nampak abis ku kna celen...and what a bit pissed me off yesterday is Metallica's latest album still not here yet..bullshit!(nah mula tia)..lagging negeri kitani ane eh..smua serba lagging..mana gprs,album band diAmerica kna release ariane tpi smpai kemari taun dpn,ada yg nda smpai langsung,mana lgi urang2nya...ahahaha! kira temasuk aku lah tu..tpi lagging lagi cHilmi lah..ahaha sorry bro...and sorry guys for this lame post..apa nya urg tua2,"janji update"..hahahahaha! k adios amigos chiodos nachos for free limited time available only in the shop called Kamar store...

Quotes of the day...

2008-09-18T11:21:00.001-07:00

"I made a mistake! I carved my name inside your head!"

When Adee tells about one of the bullshits in his life...

2008-09-18T11:21:00.000-07:00

Now i have the time to update...and sorry i'm going to be busy after this cuz you know,Raya is not far from today...haha...it's 2 a.m. already and it's Friday...feel very tired...went shopping(eseh) yesterday and i only bought a wrist band to jamm...actually for an Alternate Picking lover i mean for guitarist..if u wear a wrist band,u can feel that u picked the guitar very fast..hoho...and btw..i don't have any admire anymore,felt sick and tired...even if i have to wait and do anything just to win their heart is it going to work? Nope! more than 10 times already i've been through this shit and it's still the same old story...not one girl,a few actually...no matter what you've done,"you're still going to stuck in the friend zone boy!"...and fuckfully,i'm not that pushy,i just don't wanna end up hated or avoided....learn from mistakes,bla bla bla it's not gonna work...life's not that fair..deal with it! i don't need anybody's symphathy btw...i'll just have to wait and see..no more actions,no more sacrifice,no more contributions....that's all! Bullsheeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt! o'fucking'kay then i'll update again if i have time!

*no f*cking comments for this blog please..i'm sucks in debating...but not fist fighting LOL!
(pity me? Fuck you!)

That's it! I'm Leaving!

2008-09-16T12:57:00.000-07:00

You can see there my fuckin Leaving certificate...i leave the school with "empty hands"..so much memories to remember..but too bad i don't have the chance to see Teacher Ratna again ahahahaha! I didn't felt regret about the "a bit" failure...at least i achieved many things in that school..heheh...and i just wanna say that There's More To Life Than Just This! Should i repeat that line? ok that's all! saya mau tdur...

Confessions?

2008-09-15T10:51:00.000-07:00

Some said "Good Things Happen To Good People"...and thankfully i stick with these "quotes"..it's very inspiring...but what if i don't? what if i give up,just turn into a bad guy and make you hate me for every seconds of your life...i just don't want that..in my life i never intend to hurt my love ones' feelings...everyone..my families,friends,girlfriends,BFFs(Lol!)...there's a reason for that...i just don't wanna lose them...i have to take care of their feelings so that they're not mad or hate me...some of them realized it..and others..they're going to treat me like a toy.....try to make me mad,i'll just keep it shut but when i make u a bit mad,you'll hating me like forever till' i have to beg for fuckin' forgiveness...just after you found out what kind of guy am i,you're going to do anything you want to because i'll never hurt you..why? because i just don't wanna lose you damn it! but then if i'm hating you..then leave you...i know you'll be happy for that because..............

It says "Anyone who read this" that means i'm tagged...Lol!

2008-09-13T22:34:00.000-07:00

1) Define your self
- Just a quiet guy with feelings of hatred...

2) Whats the last thing you bought?
- EASI Card..eheheh

3) Have you ever cheated on your Boyfriend(s) / Girlfriend(s) ?
- Nope..

4) How many percent do you think you're beautiful/handsome?
- I think i'm not that good looking

5) whats your ideal type of guy/girl?
- A type of girl who loves me for who i am...

6) whats your favourite brand?
- Adidas and Crocodile...ahaha!

7) If You are given chance to change your physical, which part of your body would you change?
- My waist and......

8) you wish your name was...
- If my name's change,i'll wish my name was Suryadi...

9) If you have millions and millions of cash right now, what will you do with it?
- i'll give half of it to my family and i'll spend the others on making my own studio and of course,Paul Reed Smith and ESP Guitars, Mesa Boogie Amps, Any DigiTech's Pedalboards and a trip to America =D

10) Whats your favourite dream?
- The dream when i met her.....

→5 wishes→
- All Problems Solved...
- My own Signature Paul Reed Smith or ESP Guitars..
- 6'3 or 6'6 tall...and a well-toned muscled body..hahahah
- A very fast Guitar Shredder..
- Her.....

i tag:
ANYONE WHO READ THIS.

Childhood History..

2008-09-13T10:10:00.000-07:00

I'm very moody today..but after singing along with Mastodon's The Wolf Is Loose damn! i can feel the anger! okay..childhood history...i know it's lame for me to tell ya'll this but i just want to throw my feelings here...well during Primary schools i'm a very quiet,sensitive and easily cry when my teacher's mad at me...ahahaha...and also during that time,i'm overweight..u know what overweight people looks like..the type of people u love to make fun of...the type of people that u didn't want to be with although they want u so bad...well, i hate to say this..mostly 'fat people' in this world looks very fucking good after they worked hard dieting and exercising...like 10 times better than the ones that ya'll said "hot"...hahaha.. yea i realized that(but please don't try to be fat after this..hahah)...me, i started to take actions when i was 12..playing football indoor,(i mean inside an air-conditioning room), dancing..ahaha and so on ...but i can see changes when i'm 13...during that age i played football hmmm often..i had a team but we're a loser..ahahaha..just a month before our tournament we're not practice much...and the consequences of course, we're a loser...hahaha! i love football during that time but i decided to quit on doing it when i was 15..had a worst injury that i can't tell and my skin that time is dark! that's the second reason i quit football...haha..well these sport do reduce my weight and fats..i still do sports after that though..and now i'm a bit but not too happy about what i had achieved...there's still some fats that i have to burn..i'll do the best i can to kill you all my fats! wahahahahahaha! hmm..about the Bully history, i still remember the faces of the douchebags who hurt me but i never forgive them, even my own admire do bullied me during the primary schools then 3 years ago she asked for forgiveness? hahaha i forgive you..but by words! okay i'm not going to tell ya'll everything..if you're curious and want to know more,just ask me during chatting or anytime lah..i don't need anybody's symphathy by the way....

World Without Strangers...

2008-09-11T10:19:00.000-07:00

hey there i'm bored tonite...had a stomach ache but i know it won't hurt too long...so, another stranger added me on MSN...mun mengAdd atu tagur lah...napa? andang buduh kh? oh patutah! i asked..then no reply..bullshit! if u want to add me just to make your contacts looks many...well that's easy to solve it...i realized now Borradito, Who Blocks You, Who Stalks You bla bla bla ain't true...i saw the contacts who deleted/blocked me..but i still saw them online...i didn't know lah maybe they only deleted me without blocking mana lah aku tau...what i hate the most is when some foreign strangers added me on Mig33...especially from Indo...mantang2lah nick ku nama ku bnr...then they use they're own language...some of it i noticed that they said "mau mati ya"...fuck you! u think i'm intimidate? ahaha! i've been bullied when i was a kid,being threatened during primary schools and so on...that can tell that i had experience in those kinds of bullshit! from now on i'll never EVVEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRR accept strangers add...except for ladies and familiar usernames...hehehehehehh..that's all for tonite! next upcoming post i'll reveal my childhood history about the bullies that i suffered....a bit..not all...

*sorry if there's any grammar mistakes cuz i got D in English O level...hahaha!

Adee's latest updates with hearts full of hatred...

2008-09-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

Sorry readers...there's a technical problem everywhere...especially in connection...handphone,wireless...haiya! kacau eh! now it's 3.32 a.m. already...*burp*..ahaha! i realized too many obstacles happened in this year's Fasting Month as i'm nearly pissed off by many things that done by humans...rasa mcm kan numbuk mua urang..ahaha...and the GPRS connection starting to make me sick nowadays...and please DST don't make me wanna throw and stomp my handphone just like what my brother did to his previous Nokia..ahahaha! and btw...last Saturday i sent my "Form of Resignation"(haha!) arh skulah saya...and went i saw that school it reminds me of the memories i've been through for...emm...ahh..5 years..memories of me with 'S'...eseh! damn! you're smile makes me weak! every night if i can't sleep early, i tried to remember the picture of you smiling at me...in that way i'll be weak then sleep...haha...(oh shit! am i being sentimental? ahaha)...but now...u make me sick! u changed to this, changed to that....but to me you will forever and always be...a fucking Hypocrite!

*sorry if there's any grammar mistakes...parut ku sakit banyak minum lapas sungkai...hahaha!

The Word Fuck

2008-09-01T10:01:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...Fasting Month...that means i have to stop saying the word 'FUCK' dan yg sewaktu dgnnnya...hahahaha! i just can't stop using it everytime...i use it when singing,talking and many more..hahah..i don't know how to prevent from saying dirty words especially during Fasting...ah cuba2 je lah...sometimes when i'm pissed i always said, "Fuck eh! napa ia kan? Fuck! eh Shit! fuck! fuck! fuck! "..haaha...and sometimes when i try to sound like chicken it says this,"fuckfuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck".....hahah bah adang eyy...nda baik...ahahaha -_- *lame*....another facts about me i don't like saying "nda baik!"..haha bida usulnya..and if somebody had done something bad in front of me i just kept my mouth shut...the words "live the consequences" always there in my mind...pandai tah ia nyasal tu krg...hahahaha..sory for this lame post...just want ya'll to know that i'm not the type that loves to give advice...only sometimes when you done something that pissed me off...tpi bunyinya mcm bukan advice...mcm mengugut...wahahahaha!

To All Muslims...

2008-08-31T10:52:00.000-07:00

Wow time flies so quick! I can't believe it's already Fasting Month..heheh..so to all Muslims out there i just wanna say

A bit facts about me..aha

2008-08-30T11:17:00.001-07:00

Do you have any pets?
-yea...

What color shirt are you wearing?
-Dark Blue and Grey...

Name three things that are physically close to you:
-Cd kusung, Pendrive and lap'fucking'py...

What is the last book you read?
-Guitar World Latest Edition...yg kavanya Jimi Hendrix..

Are you or were you a good student?
-half good half bad..

What's your favorite sport?
-wrestling..aha

Do you enjoy sleeping late?
-of course...hahah...paling2 aher pun kul 4...

What's the weather like right now?
-bagas ujan....ok2 lah...

Who tells the best jokes?
-myself =D

What was the last thing you dreamed about?
-antah..blank...sal aku cuci kaki..aha

Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
-nope...

Do you believe in karma?
-yea?

Do you believe in luck?
-of course....winning are just luck..haha

Do you like your eggs scrambled or sunny side up?
-sunny side up...

Do you collect anything? If so, what?
-guitar picks and money...haha

Are you proud of yourself?
-sadang lah....

Are you reliable?
-yea!!!

Have you ever given money to a bum?
-nope...

What's your favorite food?
-The Holy Macarroni...hahaha

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
-antah ah...

Do you like the smell of gasoline?
-nope..

Do like to draw?
-yea...only if i got nothin' to do...

What's your favorite invention?
-nada...hahahahah

Is your room messy?
-of course..apa nya urg 'bilik laki2 bujang'...

What do you like better: oranges or apples?
-oranges...

Do you give in easily?
-hell fuckin' no...

Are you a good guesser?
-nope...i suck in guessing...

Can you read other people's expressions?
-fuck yea...that's one of my ability...

Are you a bully?
-nope...kna bully ada lah msa dulu2 atu...krgane? jgntah dulu...haha

Do you have a job?
-yea...

What time did you wake up this morning?
-10.30

What did you eat for breakfast this morning?
-nada...blatih puasa..ahah

When was the last time you showered?
-tdi pagi...

What do you plan on doing tomorrow?
-mliat anak bulan..haha ndadeh...jamming kali...if ada
chong(usin)..haha

What's your favorite day of the week and why?
-Friday...tpi msa siang gnya..hahah ntah nda tau napa...

Do you have any nicknames?
-yea...

Have you ever been scuba diving?
-nope...but i want it to...jumpa kawan lama...ahaha

What's your least favorite color?
-yellow...

Is there someone you have been constantly thinking about? If yes, who?
-yea....mun ku taip
namanya bnyk urg terasa...haha

Would you ever go skydiving?
-nda kali...

What toothpaste do you use?
-Kodomo Tiger...hahaha nda...tukar2 brand...LMAO!

Do you enjoy challenges?
-yea...

What's the worst injury you have had?
-left arm injury...bek jua alum lagi ku pndai men guitar
msa atu..hoho..

What's the last movie you saw?
-Scary Movie? hahaha

What do you want to know about the future?
-am i going to have the PRS Guitar? haha

What does your last text message say?
-haha...antah ku delete inbox ku...

Who was the last person you spoke over the phone to?
-urg salah numbur...

What's your favorite school subject?
-English...

What's your least favorite school subject?
-Maths...aku handal singan form 2 gnya...lpas atu kna
ambil tia power kehandalan ku atu..haha

Would you rather have money or love?
-can i fucking say both?

What is your dream vacation?
-New York..Miami and Paris...

What is your favorite animal?
-Raccoon..haa

Do you miss anyone right now?
-nope...

What's the last sporting event you watched?
-nada...malas ku mliat brg sport2 ane..gusti mau ku...

Do you need to do laundry?
-not yet...haha

Do you listen to the radio?
-krg ane nda lagi...

Where were you when 9/11 happened?
-whitehouse...hahah maksud saya rumah kmi msa atu
warna putih...

What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
-antah ah...mun ada urg dalamnya
bru di intai..haha

Have you ever caught a butterfly?
-nope...

What color are your bed sheets?
-yellow...

What's your ringtone?
-A Desk Phone ringtone...

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
-kengkawan saya..haha

Do you have any obsessions right now?
-yea...

Do you like things that glow in the dark?
-sadang lah...

What's your favorite fruity scent?
-Apple...

Do you watch cartoons?
-yup...kengkadang...

Have you ever sat on a roof?
-nope..ntah nda ku ingat...

Have you ever been to a different country?
-yup...

Name three things in the world you dislike:
-rules(ahaha)...criminals(that's obvious)...war...

Name three people in the world you dislike:
-i don't wanna go to jail..hahaha

Has a rumor even been spread about you?
-nada...jgntah dulu...ahaha

Do you like sushi?
-hell fuckin' no!

Do you believe in magic?
-ahaha yea!

Do you hold grudges?
-nope...

Paul Reed Smith guitars...

2008-08-27T00:10:00.000-07:00

i'm not going to feel bad if i have to spend thousands of dollars for Paul Reed Smith guitars in the future...i can imagine myself playing that guitar...comfortable neck..metal pickups..damn! if have PRS guitars already...i'll write the names of Douchebags of the year then paste the paper at the back of my guitar to power up my playing...weird huh? hahaha...what i mean is it can heaten up my anger so that i can strum and shred hardly...yeahh!! like the legends said, "play the guitar with feelings"

Mark Tremonti Signature Paul Reed Smith guitar...it costs around $2000-$3000...i didn't found this in our country...so that means...e-Bay! ahaha..many guitar players wishes that they wanted a flying V, a Dean Dime Razorback, Fender Strats..well i don't...hahah..Paul Reed Smith guitars got my name written all over it!

Showing off are for douchebags

2008-08-26T23:23:00.000-07:00

Wednesday,antah berapa aribulan malas ku mliat calendar...today so far lame...nothing interesting...that's why i didn't update everyday because nothing interesting happen...if i have to tell "wow today's cool! i already can play Trivium's Rain guitar parts"..that's a show off!! i don't like doing that shit! showing off are for douchebags! "wow! today, i just bought a $2000 handphone that can talk and act like humans...here's the picture"...fuck that! so what! oh fuck i'm jealous! and btw...my handphone is a NOKIA 6020 and i'm happy for that although it's just about $165...janji dpt online...hahaha...i only wanted an expensive guitar cuz that's going to be worth every seconds of my life..Paul Reed Smith and ESP guitars are my wishlist...yeah! aha no offense about this post...my blog...my words...my thoughts....

Thursday Nite Live..hahaha

2008-08-21T09:53:00.000-07:00

what a night...nobody's sleeping now although it's already 1 P.M.....haha! after having a conversation with my "long time admire"...it makes me think about myself...why am i still single? hahaha..like i said...if there's any girl that looks and got the same attitude as her i will do ANYTHING to get that girl...eheheh..nahh forget it!! ahhh btw about my hair...i'll try the best i can to protect my ear from being ask to cut my hair...biar tia panjang!! wahahaha!! and this year duit saya akan banyak beSave sebab saya tidak akan bali songkok baru...hhahaha!! one more time, hahahahahahahaha!! i love my new hair!! i want my new hairstyle to be look like WWE Superstar CM Punk...yeah!! bah dah tah...i'm a bit frustrated tonight..............chow!

Why am i putting so many lyrics here?

2008-08-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

well...i'm not gonna post all of my favourite band's lyrics...i only posted a very meaningful lyrics which i can say it tell something about what i've been through...what pissed me off...bla bla bla...just look at my previous post..Trivium's Dying In Your Arms...only some of my close friends will understand who's the girl i'm referring to..heheh..if i'm pissed..i don't usually straightfoward just like that telling "fuck! that flatop bullshit had just making fun of our songs!" but sometimes i do that if i'm not lazy..haha..i usually researched some of my favourite band's lyrics...then if i found the lyrics that can relate to something that pissed me off...O 'fucking' kay then....i'll listened to their song and post their lyrics at the day i'm pissed...weird huh? hahaha...well some people hate Rock and Metal musics because it hurts their ears...get a fucking life! i didn't hate R & B...it's just that kind of genre is not my fucking taste...the Music which most people say an "Underrated" kind of genre that is metal should be the 5 star rated...because Metal bands work harder than any other genres...sometimes it take months and a year to find out the guitar parts for one of their songs...not just the guitar..but the drums..bass...vocals...and of course most of their lyrics are awesome!! bukannya kan lirik jiwang ganya..hahaha..i love the lyrics which contains about HATRED! one day if i'm in a band, then became a songwriter...all my lyrics will tell all about the things that pissed me off!! END!

*Sorry if there's any Grammar mistakes...aku masa ane hang dikit...hahaha!

Trivium - Dying In Your Arms

2008-08-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

I'm wearing thin wearing out becoming weak
Holding hands with this rope she's my self-destructive
Bleeding disease the things that makes it hard to breathe
But if I shoved you far away
This addict just starved again asphyxiated

And now I see it's you that's tearing me ensnaring me
This is me dying in your arms
I cut you out now set me free

Lynched high above what used to be
In her gallows built for me
So I escaped cut this noose around my
Neck I break free to see the things you blinded me
And I shoved you far away
Now I live the life I dreamed of
You're dead to me

You poisoned my life
So I take this knife
And I cut you out
Cut you out

Midnight...time to chill!

2008-08-17T09:35:00.000-07:00

as usual at night,lappy...music...bla bla bla...eseh posing lagi tu...ahahaha...u can see my skin burned because tadi dpantai,baju lagi cara melayu tdi atu...hahaha..can't wait for Summerslam tommorow!

The Reunion of Under Nation..haha!

2008-08-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Woah! one of the best Sunday is today! haha...awal2 ngaga rumah cTqah ada jemputan kawin,too fucking bad we didn't meet her...mati eh suara cHelmi gnya kan didangar msa mkn..hahaha...manakan daging randang atu full dlm mulutku nda tetalan...too fucking bad...we didn't meet her...aha...after that we're jammin' at the beach...ahaha only playing acoustic guitars...my skin burned a bit but i don't give a shit as long as we're having fun! haha! our car filled with noise and laughter...then this and that...hope we'll meet again guys! I'll post the photos if have it already...or if i'm not lazy..hahaha! k cheers!

Money!!

2008-08-13T10:11:00.000-07:00

Usinku...ahaha!! mau? for girls, be my girlfriend then...hahahahahaha! kiddin'!

Micheal Angel Batio..the true Guitar God! haha!

2008-08-11T22:29:00.000-07:00

For those of you who thinks that can play the guitar very fuckin' fast, click this! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hb5QaCfm7bg

Beneath The Sky...band of the month!

2008-08-11T20:42:00.000-07:00

keburingan urg nunggu update..hahaha...bowh! the fasting month! nda lagi batah! yepe!! btw i've been arguing with some of my frens about the band Beneath The Sky...when they look at the lyrics they thought that band is a punk band...actually, hell no! they're a Death metal/Hardcore,that's their genre...these kind of death metal band is my taste...because of the lyrics...i'm tired of listening to death metal bands that use satanic and violence lyrics...cuz when i sing along with their songs, i can't feel the anger when screaming..hahaha...Beneath The Sky is a very extraordinary band....Nelson don't scream and use the low guttural vocals full time in their songs...they also used clean vocals for the choruses...which sounded like Modern Rock...ahaa..they're the best band so far! c'mon just listen to their song here in my blog...try "being in a coma is a hell carried on"....don't press stop! let it finish! the mellow part is gonna give u goosebumps! hahaha!

Beneath The Sky - It All Ends With A Smile

2008-08-07T21:49:00.000-07:00

Lets watch it burn!
Why must you feel the need to question anything and everything?
I will tell you not to have the answers and so I'd rather keep my mouth shut.
Fuck you!
I've had enough of this.
No one to blame but myself.
Liars,Hypocrites,Cowards,Bastards.
Why must you destroy everything thats fucking good?
I accept the face that my murderer will come with the sound.

The sound (the sound) is in this.
Cut through so deep.

Why must you feel the need to judge everything and everyone?
Why do you think you're so different?
I can always smell shit a mile away.
Liars. Hypocrites. Cowards. Bastards.
I no longer pride myself on the everyday world.
Sometimes I feel damn good just to watch the world fucking burn.

The sound (the sound) is in this.
Cut through so deep.(so deep)
The world (the world) is hurting.
Our hearts go to sleep. (to sleep)
The voice it speaks to me. (speaks to me)
It whispers inside of me. (whispers)
The voice says come to me. (come to me)
Falling so long. (so long)
Some to break the sound.
The sound (the sound) is in this.
Cut through so deep. (so deep)
The world (the world) is hurting (is hurting).
Our hearts go to sleep. (go to sleep)

Update for August...

2008-08-03T21:03:00.000-07:00

Welcome August! that means the Fasting month is not far from here anymore...are you ready? hahaha! after this i'll going to update this blog rarely...i love being busy! hahaha!! so that i don't have to think about onlining...MSN is very lame nowadays..nada lagi ada bnyk "legend2" yang online...ada yang delete saya,ada yang block saya...well who gives a shit anyway? i will realize if i had done something wrong and try to solve that shit! ahh!! enough with this pathetic stuff! i don't want to ruin my happiness! =D at last! i found that fuckin' video game!! and i can't wait for WWE Summerslam!! Undertaker's back! hell yeah! for those wrestling fans in Brunei out there...don't forget to book that PPV! Fuck Yeah!! k that's all! i want to jamm!!!

Simple Timeline..hahaha

2008-07-30T10:52:00.000-07:00

When i look back at this pic sometimes it touches me...hahaha...yea! that's me! then for how many many years later......

Look at me now!! hahaha! the looks of an "anger management problem" kinda guy!

haha...

2008-07-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

At least today's Sunday is not lame....ahahah...i spent my afternoon webcamming and video calling with my friend, Math...heheheh okay kan if aku post ane? =p

Beneath The Sky - 7861

2008-07-26T10:27:00.000-07:00

7861 Blackthorne
They found the body
Hanging from the ceiling
Once again staring down at a casket...
Run far away from the casket
Don't let me go back inside
Now are you set free?
Now that you left us in your cage
Once again something apart of my life dies again, and lives again

What made you decide that the only way is the wrong way?
Was it the thought of failure?
Or was it the girl?
Or was it the drugs that became your friends that night?
Look at you now
Look what you've done
I can't promise you a rose garden

Can you see her?(This vision with closed eyes)
Watching you(I'm not ready for this)
Through her eyes(It's time for the final act)
Can you see?
Do you believe?
Will you save me?(As the curtains closed)

Now don't ever hear me wrong
These years have passed me by
And I'm still wondering why?
Why a man would take his life?
I still love you my friend
They look at me now
They know what I've done
They can't promise me a rose garden

Can you see her?(This vision with closed eyes)
Watching you(I'm not ready for this)
Through her eyes(It's time for the final act)
Can you see?
Do you believe?
Will you save me?(As the casket closed)

As you struggle within your noose, what was your last thought?
Just cut your rope...You could of been saved...
Just cut your rope!

Monday Nite Blues..hahah

2008-07-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

We're jammin' at Raziqin Studio in JP last night...i was the one in the middle playing B.C Rich guitar but u can't see my face and the guitar there..hahaha..btw mcm teturun seluar ku atu...haha....and that night,we're playing cover songs mostly from Megadeth... \m/

WWE The Great American Bash results

2008-07-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

For wrestling fans out there who missed The Great American Bash Pay-Per-View, click this link, http://www.wwe.com/shows/thegreatamericanbash/

New Haircut!

2008-07-20T00:14:00.000-07:00

Yeah! i know some of u who saw my pic with my guitar at my friendster profile,my hair looks messy! at last i cut my hair a bit...ahahaha..that's my pic with my new haircut there...wat do you think? sucks? hahaha

Darkest Hour - Sound The Surrender....dedicated to someone!

2008-07-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

This moment marks the shattering of senses
comatose distinctions
the gathering of flies on an irrational mind
filled with broken convictions
i've seen how lies take form in your eyes

your suspicious ways followed a hollow gaze
you fucking left me to rot but one day you'll see first hand
how you've paid for your biggest mistake

Sound The Surrender
Embrace in Vain
What will you gain from this?!!
What will you lose?!!

Secrets hidden behind your back
your silence it serendaes deciet
Secrets hidden behind your back
your forever ideal fantasy

Sound The Surrender
Embrace in Vain
What will you gain from this?!
What will you lose?!

This moment marks the shattering of senses
comatose distinctions
the gathering of flies on an irrational mind
filled with broken convictions

Sound The Surrender
you've gained all that you can from this
But you've lost the only one!

Depressed Quote...

2008-07-17T09:35:00.000-07:00

"I die for no one because the one who i die for dies for someone"
-Adee..

Thursday Nite Post..

2008-07-17T08:58:00.000-07:00

Maybe i'm not suitable for doing good things...just after doing something that's very kind then came something that makes me sick...why is that? fuck man! this is bullshit! and thankfully at the afternoon i had a big mood in playing "Resident Evil : Dead Aim"..because in that game..i can imagine that the zombie i shot is the people who pissed me off!!! the sound of the guns are very real..realistic effects...damn! pure 100% stratusfaction(satisfaction)...hahahaha!! I think Trish Stratus is the only woman who's very good in wrestling..u know...talented and powerful..not besides that...haha...okay let's get back to the topic...after playing that game i suffered a headache...in my life i never blame a video game if i suffered a headache...that headache is because of my lack of sleep...the reason of that is...............ah nevermind! who gives a shit anyway?! Btw damn what the fuck?! i just watched ECW and former Umaga's manager Armando Alejandro Estrada surprised me...i think it's only about 4 months he's not in the ECW...now, his body turns into a wrestler's body from being a skinny loudmouth dumbass! haha! i can't believe it! what did he do? GYM 24/7? Even me....it takes time to expand my triceps..hahahaha..kay forget it! Overall my today's mood...just okay...not happy,not sad but mad!

Fukuf!!(Fuck off)

2008-07-14T08:54:00.000-07:00

Tonight...Growling,screaming and death grunts like Metal singers are suitable for me to do it...i'm very pissed today when i was trying to be fuckin' Happy!! by what? too many things...inside MSN,outside MSN, everywhere... but thankfully.. i get something that i deserve today...money!!(Using Eugene Krabs' voice)

My First Electric Guitar?

2008-07-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

Yea...that's my boy right there..ahaha...features with Double Humbuckers,one Pickup and 24 frets... k that's all!

Useful advice..aha

2008-07-13T22:05:00.000-07:00

If you're having a meal in a group then one of you are talking unstoppably...just don't say anything...the talkative eater will realize that you're enjoying the food...hahaha

Inspirational Anarchy creation pic..hahah

2008-07-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

i got this pic from...don't remember..hahaha...hope Mawi didn't saw this...ahaha

Lame Saturday Night..

2008-07-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

When i look at my Rolex watch(eseh so op...hahah) it's already 12.46 a.m. Sunday...ahahaha..janji ada topic...i feel better now from that massive tootache...hmm don't have any idea on what to post this lately...verrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyy busyyyyyyy.......

Untitled...

2008-07-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

Not in a good mood today...Ulcers,toothache,stomach ache and heartache...damn!! argghhhhhh!!!!!!!

Update...

2008-07-06T11:16:00.000-07:00

I'm very busy this lately...i got a "Guitar Shredding Practice Schedule"...hahahaha and i spent half of my day doing the practice...and btw..i got a bad news..i had a toothache for already 3 days because of that apa namanya ne ah? antah kira coklat lah...i try the Listerine but didn't work..the Panadol didn't work...see the Dentist? Gulp! :-S hahahahahaa...fuck eh!!

July 2008...Welcome!

2008-06-30T10:06:00.000-07:00

Aku batah nda update pasal aku mau bagi chan urg mbaca tips yang sal FS arh Opera Mini,nada idea sma nunggu July..hahahaha!! I hope i'll modified my new guitar,replace new strings..clean it up...and if ada budget i wanna replace the pickup and the humbuckers...mun dpt tah metal pickups mcm yg arh PRS guitars..yum yum..hahaha..so,July...people can say that the time flies quickly but to me it's not..hahaha..tekana ia musim karing atu kali iatah...damn! i can't wait for payday! anyway, 2 more months to go for the Fasting Month!

For those of you who got problems with Friendster in mobile...

2008-06-25T08:47:00.000-07:00

I know some of you who use Opera Mini trying to check your friendster profile,who gave you comments...bla bla bla felt sick of this new friendster mobile kinda thing..well here are the tips for you who didn't know how to solve it:

1.Go to www.quickbrowsing.com using your Opera Mini

2.Put the Friendster URL at the "URL box"

3.Tick all the boxes below the "URL box" except for the second one that says "Remove Client-Script bla bla bla"

4.Then at last,click "Browse"...that's all! =)

If there's any error tell me at my Chatbox okay!

Disturbed is Indestructible!

2008-06-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

To all Disturbed fans who don't have this album i recommend y'all to

get this! Powerful astounding guitar riffs at the first track "Indestructible",nice solo but the vocals to me sounds a bit different than the old ones...oh? maybe it's my ear that made it sounds different..hahaha!! What are you waitin' for? Get it now!

Quotes of the day..

2008-06-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

"There's a fine line between "respect" and "ass kissing"...just don't cross it!"
-Adee

I create this lyrics...i like it and it's not finish yet...haha..btw i'm not emo! this lyrics is inspired from Modern Rock songs!!

2008-06-25T02:35:00.000-07:00

From Innocent
To sensitivity
Our olden days seems faded from my mind time to time
You're there but i still can't see you
You're whispering but i can't hear any word from you
You're falling but i can save you

Lies and Obstacles
I don't wanna fight that now(cuz you're not there for me)
Let's kill the memories
Cuz it's painful now(cuz you're not there for me)

June..Musim Karing!!

2008-06-25T02:18:00.000-07:00

"Ujan jua kadang2!" bukan karing kemarau karing wallet kusung! hahahaha...after i bought that guitar and spent $2 for Jamming...only my ID is left in my wallet..haiya! some kids who still schooling don't wanna wait for July cuz the 2nd term holiday ends that month..."boooo!" aahaha...to me..feels like i wanna sleep till' July..u know..payday!! damn! i want the Monnaayy!! and! after June ends...that means two months to go for the Fasting Month...wow!! time flies like a Boeing 7...bla bla bla nda ku tau pasal nama kapal terabang..hahaha

Update and a Trivia about me..ahaha

2008-06-25T02:07:00.000-07:00

Can i say that this thirst quenching drink makes me drunk..hahahaha...it's not a tea..it's not an alcoholic liquid...it's....................(to be continue and it won't be continue...hahaha!)

22nd June 2008,Sunday

2008-06-22T12:07:00.000-07:00

Wow..siuk kemarin atu ey..picnic,makan,makan,makan...hahaha...yesterday we were having a picnic at the Meragang beach...man! i love 22nd June 2008's Sunday..aha

*i was the one with the black and red shirt...and! the Bruce Lee hairstyle..ahahaha

Saturday Afternoon...

2008-06-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

Everybody thinks that today is very cold...but i don't think so..ahaha..i'm tired of telling about something that i hate today...because today is very lame for me to do it...aha...udah dpt guitar...ada lgi brg kn dtunggu...adoi!

Calm down at last..but not least..

2008-06-18T11:19:00.000-07:00

Listening to Detonation's Forever Buried Pain(damn! what a beautiful guitar riffs!),chatting with my Math...ahaha then happily i smile as i saw my first electric guitar besides me!(i'll show the picture if i have time..hehe)...another mission? I have to get back my effects,need money to buy cable and strings and of course....SHRED!!!

One word..Damn! hahaha

2008-06-18T01:43:00.000-07:00

Hahaha...i'm not qualified for the MTSSR July 2008 session and that's okay i'll try next year cuz this year i need time to rest and think about my job...my students have to perform at the end of the year but the time to practice to me is not enough...i hope they will practice at their home too...*sigh* wow this is going to be a holiday...5 months plus next year...ahahaha!! kay peace!

Monday!! Who love this day?

2008-06-15T21:32:00.000-07:00

Just like i said...Today is going to be boring and Lame....only i have to online in this laptop until my eyes bleed...damn! if i have that money i would be buying that guitar and blanja cMath! hahahaha..so let's get ready for the Boring Monday!!

Fuck the changes!

2008-06-15T21:20:00.000-07:00

People can do anything they want in their life and that's okay but if you're trying to do something that you want don't affect the other people who didn't like what u like...nowadays many changes i saw from many people and it makes me sick!!!

Lama dah nda bUpdate..haha

2008-06-14T10:02:00.000-07:00

Gila..lama dah nda bUpdate..hahaha..i'm very busy with YouTube and controlling my anger management problem..heheh...damn! it's hard to get what i want although i work for it..too many obstacles that made me wanna do criminal things like "just steal that Les Paul!" but i know it's a bad thing and i admit it i'm desperate...i want that thing for so so long and i'm only asked to be patience,patience,patience! This is so unfair! Is there something good that's going to happen because of this??? If Yes..let me know..i'll wait!

Bullshit Part 3...hahhaha

2008-06-02T22:56:00.000-07:00

This thing happened i don't know last week maybe...it was in Hua Ho...just wondering around there to look for cheap guitars...i found one but still insufficient money...hahaha...yang paluinya ada tia bini2 dua urg mcm member2 dari "Antimen" kali lah jenis nya..lapas drg ketawa2 skali nampak aku ada tia bunyi dri mulutnya bunyi "Chi"...tau kan? mcm bunyi sasak...hahaha..c'mon bitch not all humans are the same..no! no! no! not all men are the same..if u hate ur Ex-boyfriend or whoever it is don't take out on anybody that doesn't have anything to do with it and if u want to kill me does that effect at ur Ex? Is he going to die automatically? Bullshit! Where's ur brain? Inside ur toilet's flush?

Vocals? hahahaha

2008-06-01T11:48:00.000-07:00

"Besides guitar is there any other instrument u wanna learn Adee?" I answered "yes! and the Microphone will be that instrument!" hahaha...yeah! i know it's going to be funny but i wanna learn to sing a Death/Trash Metal vocal styles...you know Harsh singing,growling,screaming(not screamo! that sucks!)...and it's true that this "death metal vocal styles" are going to hurt my Larynx and bla bla bla...that's why i wanna learn the training and the techniques..and yesterday was already the intro..haha..I was inspired by many Death/Thrash metal vocals especially Glen Benton(Deicide),Muhammad Suicmez(Necrophagist),Chuck Billy(Testament) and a Nu-Metal too that is Corey Taylor(Slipknot and Stone Sour)...

*sorry if there's any grammar mistakes..u know i'm a malay..hahhaa..malay peeps don't need to be proud if u can speak English...some of them speaks like an American..waahaha..think first where u came from!!

Nah Lupa lagi!

2008-06-01T11:40:00.000-07:00

This is the French Open's fault! I forgot that today is the WWE PPV "One Night Stand"...all the matches are going to be Brutal!(except for Beth Phoenix vs. Melina...hahaha jokin'2) and what the fuck? about the Undertaker vs. Edge in a TLC match..if the Undertaker lose he must leave WWE? SHITTTTT!!!! Nooooooo!!! damn! i hope he wins that match!

WWE Raw is the best TV show ever!!

2008-05-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

French Open,Italian Open,Bla Bla Open...that stupid Live Tennis tournament always be my "enemy" cuz it disturbed the WWE Raw from being played on TV...this shit always happened like 5 or whatever times a year and it's killing me...nobody want to watch that bullshit..i felt very stupid waiting for Raw at the time when it should be played but,the stupid show still continues on and on until morning!! c'mon! wrestling fans are more than tennis fans and that sport...is Lame!! The WWE Raw is just like my "Routine TV shows" that i just can't missed it SINCE I WAS A KID!! Why Supersport Why??!! We Want Wrestling!!!

Goals...

2008-05-25T09:23:00.000-07:00

Megadeth's Dave Mustaine goal in his life was to create a metal band that's more powerful than the band that kicked him out,Metallica...and finally he achieved his goals...that thing inspired me much..but in my life i got many goals to achieve...now,i want to work on something that i wanted..all by my hands,my sweat,my tears and without any help because i don't trust anybody anymore...cuz that's bullshit already!

Everything Changes...

2008-05-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

Day by day,week by week,month by month,year by year i'll not going to stay the same...act innocent,let shits flow,give a damn about the words that's going to stop me...sometimes when i think back about the things that i done previously makes me feel so stupid..but that's okay..i'll change...because everybody changed,and some of their changes makes me SICK!!

Nice Sunday...haha

2008-05-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

today i don't type "Lame Sunday" on my MSN nickname..ahaha...man! after my lovely 3rd sister brought us to a restaurant for breakfast(makan nyaman2 lah...haha),then went to a birthday occasion and at last to the beach....that's what we called Sunday!!

Face of a Wrestler...ahah

2008-05-23T01:12:00.000-07:00

i don't know some people stared at me a very strange kinda way..not once but many times especially childrens...just like today during the Jumaat Pray..there's one small kid that was praying beside me and his two brothers were praying in front of me..these two guys cared about their little boy then stared at me like i'm going to give this kid a "Sleeper Hold" during the Takbiratul Ikhram...ahaha..c'mon! i'm a friendly person..not just a kid but sometimes a girl..a hot girl i mean..haha..i know my face expression looks like i'm a moody person...that's because of the sunlight and i am a Rockstar!! hahaha!