Hoping,that's isn't my style anymore...

In this kinda age i don't believe in promises easily anymore..it's just a cheap "5 cents worth" word..i don't need to celebrate if i'm going to get something that i wanted..unless if it's already in my hands...people promised to buy me this and that then i started to said "yepe! nda lgi lama aku dpt gitar karan ne! sdiakan tmpat untuk amp eh!"...man! that's bullshit!! why did i do that? why am i hoping so much? that's why everything that i try to get i'll work for it..get a job...collect money..but sometimes it won't work in that way.......obstacles y'all know what i mean...